It has been sometimes since I last written something in my baby blog. Well, there's a lot  of things which I wanted to share with all, especially on my personal vacation to Jakarta/Bandung. huhu. But due to time constraints, as well as mood constraints (huhu ;P), I have to put this thingy aside for awhile. Anyways, below is my movement since last July which may explain why I ain't got chance to blogging.

28 July- 30 July 08   -->  Labuan (Work)
1 Aug- 5 Aug 08       -->  Jakarta & Bandung (Enjoy ;) )
8 Aug - 10 Aug 08    -->  Kota Bharu (Enjoy ;) )
10 Aug - 12 Aug 08  -->  Kota Kinabalu (Work)
22 Aug - Now            -->  Sumandak Platform, Sabahwater (work)

Apart from that, I've celebrated my 26th birthday on the last 190808. Well, it's not celebrating it in the sense of celebrating it with balloons, cakes, friends, bla bla bla whatsoever. I don't do anything on my supposed-to-be-special-day. I hate my birthdays.. I hate the fact that I'm getting old.




 

Lately I feel so lazy to update my blog. Hmm.. not only due to that, it is also because I am no longer able to really write something that I foresee could be a joke subject by my office colleagues. Ahh.guys, come on.. give me some space.

I've always been wanting to publish the following pictures of this cute little girl in my blog. A daughter of a friend of mine. I'm not that close to her. The total frequency of seeing her in my life can only be counted by both hands, if not one hand.

But knowing the fact that recently she is raised by her only father has made my brain doing extra thinking when I looked at her sweet face. At only age of 2, she has lost her mom's love and care, I wish it is only for temporary time. I tried to put my own self in her shoes and I came to realize that it is not easy to think of it. Org kata berat mata memandang, berat lagi bahu yang memikul...

During my short time with her, I did notice that she has not shown much attitude as a little kid. She's so quiet. Unlike my niece I would say, Eisya is so active, doing whatever she likes. Kaco org ni kaco org tu. See how a kid's attitude is affected by how much love we given to them. Well, too much loves also are not good to the kids. They might end up growing to be too dependant children.

Well, as I said earlier, since I'm not that close to this girl, my overall perception to her might be wrong. It is just based on a few hours moment with her....... really hope that she's fine! Maybe because I've faced the lack of love experience during my childhood years, I tend to think of this. Hmm should have not said that. But my childhood time is not as good as this current time. I grew in super large family and no doubt we can't call it a family if there is no crisis exist in it. But we managed to get thru it and we are a big happy family now ;) lalala~ Thanks Allah.

Selamat Pengantin Baru to both of my beloved friends. Semoga kehidupan kamu lebih bahagia dan dirahmati Allah Taala. Amin :)

Suria & Firdaus - 24 May 08

haihh..

Something for a thought.

What do u actually look for in a marriage? What is the actual definition of marriage? Why do u marry someone that you love? Looking for happiness? Yes. That is for sure. But it's not the only thing that matters in a marriage. It's about accepting each other, bad or good.

When I heard someone is getting divorce with his/her partner, I can't believe that my tears were slowly running down my face. It was sad to know that another marriage is about to destroy. Have u ever thinked at any second that u will end up with a divorce when u were sitting on the pelamin with the bride/bridegroom on your big day. I'm positive that no one will ever expect that to happen. But why is it happening after a few years of marriage or even after a few months? Demit.

I was happened to know a story that makes me think about this in depth. It is about the infidelity of the husband of a friend of mine. He was out of station in overseas for just about one month. He met a girl also was stationed over there. They had an affair and my friend found out. A cold war was initiated when she knew that her husband was playing 'three wood'. Well I mean, unfaithful and disloyal husband.
Luckily, she was willing to give the man another chance. But definitely, their life wouldn't be the same again.

She confronted her husband and asked what did she does wrong all the while. The husband then revealed all the wrong things that she would not know before and would never know if the husband never told her.
1. Her family always interferes in their marriage.
2. She was giving her two daughters more attention than to him.
3. She was no longer taking care of herself especially on her physical look. (Note that she is a very pretty lady and was been a hot stuff during her single time)
4. She was in the confinement after delivering her second daughter. (Come on man!!)
5. Other pulling factors.

Those above reasons are so typical. So common. And because of these reasons, man would find easy way out. Looking for a new woman and having affairs. And it is all because of the minor imperfection of his partner after being together so many years. And the easiest way out is to get divorce and marry other woman. Demit. And also there's some couple that claimed their feeling and kesefahaman have gone along the way. Not to forget, some claimed that their partner was totally changed after the marriage.

It is sad, isn't it. I used to live in a not-so-happy-family. My father married my stepmom when I was in standard 6. I know how was it felt to be my mother at that time. I still remember my mom when she was in her dark side of her life. When she was crying at all times. It was like a hell. But why man does not want to understand woman's feeling. We don't want anything other than your love, your care, and you.

But It's the life. Can't run away from it.

But just remember, anything happens, it happens for a reason if not more. Remember, Allah will always help us whenever we asked for His help.

I watched Sepi last Saturday after being told by my bro that for him, it is the best malay film so far. Hmm.. well, what can I say, I have tears in my eyes after watching it. Here's some review to share..

My 2 cents view says that, it's a movie in which if u really pay a serious attention to it, it can change your whole perception about LOVE. Basically, there are 3 major elements that the previous director of 'Cinta' film wished to convey to all the audience in this romantic film. It's LOVE, LOSS and LONELINESS. Three different persons in three different lifes destined to meet in a tragic incident that has changed their life forever.

LOVE
Adam (Aflin Shauki), a chef who is yet to find his other half. Always being seated at 'singles' table during his friends' reception and he hated it very much. Fate has brought him to know this girl, Ilyana (Vanidah Imran), they both fall in love, and happen to know that Ilyana is getting married.

Ilyana: Bila kita jumpa, semuanya dah terlambat
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Adam: Kenapa kita jumpa, kalau bukan tuk bersama

The conclusion that I've got from this story is, to get married with someone whom you love not with someone who loves you.
Hmm...Does marrying with someone you love guarantee your happiness thru out your life? I doubt it. Well it must come from both ways, whatever it is, you and your partner must be willing to accept each other, then your marriage will be until end of time.

LOSS
Sufi (Tony Eusoff), a guy who runs for miles each day to get away from the memories of his dead wife. He met Marya (Eja), a wife who is longing for a child. They both also fall in love, love that is almost impossible. Sufi has begged Marya to leave his husband to be with him. But the destiny has it already. Marya has pregnant and decided to stay with his husband.

Sufi: Dulu, saya ingat cinta hanya datang sekali sahaja. Tapi saya dikurniakan cinta kedua. Saya akan tunggu awak sampai bila2. Saya akan tunggu awak di tempat kita pertama kali jumpa.
                          ......................
Marya: Hati saya tetap milik awak. Tapi kebahagian milik anak saya.

This story really touched deeply inside me. Especially when Marya came to the place where they first met each other after some years (She's old already at that time, hmm I guess it is after 10-15years), Sufi's son came to see her and said his dad (Sufi) has passed away 3 years ago and asked him to come there everyday to look for Auntie Marya. It shows that Sufi still hasn't forgotten Marya until end of his life.

Hmm.. morale of the story, if you do like someone, dont ever let her/him go away. U will regret when you lose him/her sooner or later. Waaaaa.. sedihnyeeeee :((( sobsobsob.......


LONELINESS

Imaan (Baizura Kahar), a young playwright who is haunted by her own past. This is another touching story. Korang tgk la sendiri, baru best. lalala~


Sedih sedih sedih....... why love has to be this sad. Adeh..

mummy loves eisya, sayang mummy...

budak ni mase kecik comel jek.. baik jek.. dah besar skit ni... garang gile.. ku selalu menjadi mangsa kemarahannye.. die selalu menghalau ku masuk ke dalam bilik kerana tidak suke melihat ku berlegar2 di ruang tamu.. tetapi die juga suke masuk ke dalam bilik ku utk menekan2 keyboard laptop ku dan membelek2 album gambarku sambil mengoyakkan beberape helai mukasurat album tersebut. *sigh* tapi whatever it is, mummy tetap sayang eisya so much! muahss :*

dan mummy sgt2 suke bile eisya panggil "mummy.. mummy." "mummy bukak pintu. eisya nak masuk" "mummy eisya nak coklat".. "mummy cantik.." <-- ni aku la yg ajar huhu. lalala~

Call me jiwang.. call me SS.. call me anything u want.. it does not hurt me, not even an inch shift of who I am, not even close.

I just adore how beautiful the below has been written.........
And I could not agree more with it........
It talks of my heart.....
and it comforts me....

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Don't be too good I will miss you.
Don't be too caring, I might like you.
Don't be too sweet, I might fall for you.
It's hard for me to love you when you won't love me after all...
Bottomline : A person who makes me loves him/her is actually a person who loves me more than I love him/her.

If someone comes into your life
And becomes a part of you
But for some reasons he couldn't stay,
Don't cry too much...
Just be glad that your paths crossed
And somehow he made you happy even for a while.
Bottomline : Time will tell, If he's yours he will come back


Two tear drops were floating down the river.
One teardrop said to the other,
"I'm the teardrop of a girl who loved a man and lost him. Who are you?"
"I'm the teardrop of the man who regret letting a girl go..."
Bottomline : Nobody will sympathise a person who constantly let chances passes by without making any efforts to salvage. We normally don't realise how important our loved and closed ones are until they left us, we'll start reminiscences which results misery.

Love can make you happy although often times it hurts.
But love is only special if you give it to which it's worth.
Bottomline : If you found someone who truly appreciates you, He/she deserves more of your love.


What If someone tells you this: I don't believe in courtship.
It's just a waste of time. If I love the person, I'll tell her right away.
But for you I will make an exception...
Just love me now and I'll court you forever...
Bottomline : Love needs time to realise, there might be love at first sight but it takes time to let one gradually discover their affection towards another, miss him/her when he/she is not around, hope to hear from he/she when the person has not written or called.


It's always better to have found the courage to love even if you lose
It in the end rather than never found love because you were too afraid
Of the challenge.
Bottomline : Don't give up if you face or think that you have competitors. It's always better to try, if you succeed, the reward is more than you can expect. But if you don't try or don't summon up the courage, you might lose the one you like/love forever...


The greatest challenge in our life is to find someone who knows our flaws
And differences and yet still willingly embraces you with so much love.
Bottomline : Love is a means of self giving and self sacrificsing, if he/she knows your flaws and still willing to accept you, continue to like/love you as you are or even more, boy, you are lucky! This person truly deserves your love and affection.

The spaces between our fingers were created so that another person's fingers could fill them in.
Bottomline : open your heart, let people love you, never Doubt their intentions, sincerity can be felt by the heart.


When you love, it is not for you to be understood but for you To understand; not for you to take but for you to be taken; to listen not to dictate; to sacrifice and not to demand; not to count or measure but to love.